Obsession.

Please

to

appease.

Retry

to 

satisfy. 

Assent

until

content.

I cannot help it. I know you can never make everyone happy, but I find myself attempting to do so again and again. I blame it on the atmosphere that high school presents. It would be much easier to not care about everyone's opinion if people did not plaster it on Twitter, subtweeting and gaining all these like from individuals that agree with them. From an adults perspective, the itty-bitty number next to a little star on a screen might seem menial, but to teenagers it is a big deal. The only solution in my mind is to just please everyone. Makes perfect sense right? Then no one would subtweet or speak ill of you and high school would not be so bad. It sounds wonderful, if only it actually happened.

It has been proven to me time and time again that you cannot please everyone, yet I cannot find any other solution to this problem. I could not care, which is what many people say they do, but as much as I try, I am unable to remove that part of my brain. The part of my brain that cares too much about what others think has grown into many other parts of my brain. It has intertwined itself into the part that lets me laugh, reminding me that someone will not be happy when j think something is funny. It has engulfed the part of my brain that allows me to speak my mind on issues, holding my tounge for me. 

However, I do think this obsession with pleasing people has gotten better the more I advance in high school. The more awful experiences happen the more I understand why it does not matter. I hope senior year I will finally be able to understand.

Try not to care. 

JSL